The play of existence.

Have you ever wondered how the "X"(or whatever you like to call it) experiences itself? How it perceives life through infinite viewpoints? Simply hearing or reading about this concept can evoke a deep sense of awe. However, certain psychedelics have the potential to open our awareness to this reality in a profound way.

For some, this realization fades as the effects wear off, while others carry its essence with them. But for a select few, this experience unfolds like a massive wave in the ocean. At first, they only grasp the idea of subjective viewpoints, but as the intensity grows, they begin to experience these different perspectives with overwhelming clarity and strength. These few people if are not able to ground and integrate properly with the external society and situations likely end up in the psych ward.

In psychiatry, this phenomenon is often labeled as psychosis. When individuals experiencing such states are assessed, doctors frequently ask a specific question: “Do you feel like others are following or trying to harm you?”. When such individuals encounters a crowd or another being, since the identity of self is lost they  start to see the underlying energy manifest through the crowd or he/she sees themselves in the other being. If you are having a hard time visualising, imagine all of us as cells of a bigger organism. Each cell right upon birth is conditioned of self identity and values that it forgets it's part of a bigger organism. Now let's get back to our case. Reading this only leaves an imprint on the mind as an  information but whenever an individual becomes aware of the subjective perception happening all around them, they get anxious and some are not able to integrate. What I mean is that it scares the shit out of them when that happens. After becoming literally aware of this theory ,entering a room full of people feels different. We start to process the idea that the "x" functions through the crowd and we are just a witness. Initially It's just like a bad trip, but in sober condition. However, these individuals exist in a space between the psychiatric viewpoint and the spiritual one, leaving them in a state of confusion. Medication is then used to suppress these thoughts in some cases.

From a spiritual perspective, when one fully embraces the understanding that all matter is simply experiencing itself subjectively through infinite viewpoints, the illusion of separation dissolves. There is no “other”—everything is being programmed and controlled by the one. At this point, the only thing left to do is observe, rather than participate as an actor in the grand play of existence.